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Sometimes the people who smiles the most, laughs the most; bares the most pain. Those fake smiles...

tumster — Sun, 23 Sep 2012 21:21:26 -0400

Sometimes the people who smiles the most, laughs the most; bares the most pain. Those fake smiles and laughter cover up underlying grief, pain, and deep sadness. They hold untold stories and problems unable to surface, pent up inside only to generate more pain.

Just because you’ve been in the same relationship for awhile, don’t expect things will...

tumster — Sun, 23 Sep 2012 17:49:52 -0400

Just because you’ve been in the same relationship for awhile, don’t expect things will be the same as time goes. Don’t expect that you know everything about your significant other because everyone changes.

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tumster — Thu, 09 Aug 2012 05:12:00 -0400

Vent

tumster — Thu, 09 Aug 2012 05:02:24 -0400

Because you say you want to talk tomorrow I won’t bother you. But I need to vent, I want you to see this. I waited for hours and put my plans aside, hoping you’d tell me soon. As time went on I just thought of giving up. I ask myself why do I put myself through this. I’m the only one who tries or shows any ounce of effort. I know that I truely care and want to keep what is left of us alive. I’m really tired of trying though and getting let down. I’m tired of getting hurt and put through pain because you decide to be selfish. I know that you care and I guess you still hold some feelings for me but it doesn’t matter much if you don’t put effort into showing or making me feel that you do. You say you want to stay together but why do your words not sound convincing? The reason why I still put up with this and try to just cling on is because this relationship matters to me. Because you are so important. I know how I feel and what I want, I know I won’t just let this all fade away. I don’t want you to read this and start thinking how it’s all your fault or that maybe we really should break up. I just want you to know what I wanted to say and see how much I care, the things I’m feeling. I know you’re probably still unsure about how you feel about us and maybe about me too, despite what you tell me. I know who you are and your habits. Just if anything, don’t lead me on to thinking there’s still hope for us to last and be happy. Like I want you to always know that I’m here going through all of this because I love you still and want to stay with you. I put myself through this hurt because I care about you so much. Realize this please and for once, don’t let me down. A reason why relationships don’t last is because somewhere along the lines, one or both people just stop trying. Please don’t be that person. Don’t give up on me and on us. I don’t want this to be like that Strangers Again video. I get scared now to say some things to you like about how I feel because it might make you think we should break up or that I’m just not good enough for you (probably true now?). I get scared that it will change your mind again on being together. I really can’t handle not being with you because I’ve always had you here. I tried to think about what I would do and how I’d spend my days after if we did break up and I really couldn’t think of anything besides just shutting myself off from everything to sulk and dwell on my sadness. Even as I’m typing this up now, I’m wishing that you would call me back like you’ve done before. You’d tell me you can’t sleep and want to stay on the phone. I’m happy when you do this from time to time because it makes me feel like you still need me for something. But I get sad when you hang up shortly after cause I start to think I’m just not useful. I can’t help you with anything anymore and you don’t really need me for much either.. I never intended to write a long post but I just started talking about stupid stuff I guess. Whatever though. I hope you read this but not go thinking and assuming things.. I don’t want things to change for the worse more than it already has.

Fuck human emotions.

tumster — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 10:35:55 -0400

I need to learn how to be more apathetic. (´･_･`)

Morning.

tumster — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 10:27:56 -0400

Waiting for over an hour for you to possibly call or to even text me. Couldn’t even go back to sleep because I keep checking my phone. Fuck, I hate being forgotten. What a great way to start off my day.. I hate you.

I don't give a fuck.

tumster — Wed, 25 Apr 2012 00:06:00 -0400

This phrase might sound like something to get mad over and forget, but you’ll realize just how much it sucks to not have the person that’s important to you care anymore.

I love how people can’t take jokes. Learn how to get a sense of humor.

tumster — Tue, 24 Apr 2012 23:50:13 -0400

I love how people can’t take jokes. Learn how to get a sense of humor.

People who randomly talks to you hella loud while you're on the phone.

tumster — Tue, 28 Feb 2012 17:12:35 -0500

Mother fucker, I will punch you in the face. Obviously you see me on the phone talking to someone, so learn some manners and wait until I’m done.

Promises are made to be broken.

tumster — Sun, 12 Feb 2012 20:29:16 -0500

Trusting you to be there for me was a mistake. There’s no one who will be there for you but...

tumster — Sun, 12 Feb 2012 20:18:21 -0500

Trusting you to be there for me was a mistake. There’s no one who will be there for you but yourself, everyone else just lies and leaves. I don’t need you in my life, I don’t need anyone. I’ve always had to look after my own feelings and comfort myself. I trust no one. I put myself behind walls because of people like. You’ve earned my trust and made me believe that I had someone to depend on, someone who wouldn’t leave me and be there to show me kindness and warmth when I need it most. I trust people easily by nature and give them the benefit of the doubt. I’m such a fool.

Sometimes I just get the feeling that there’s no one else to blame but myself. I blame myself...

tumster — Sun, 12 Feb 2012 20:08:11 -0500

Sometimes I just get the feeling that there’s no one else to blame but myself. I blame myself for letting shit happen. I blame myself for being so spineless and not being able to stick to the words I say. Whatever happens to me, how much I hurt is my fault. I have no one else to blame but myself.

We are becoming distant. Can we close the gap?

tumster — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 01:45:37 -0500

We are becoming distant. Can we close the gap?

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tumster — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 01:00:14 -0500

Fuckkk, I can’t wrap my mind around this philosophy hw. I just don’t fully understand...

tumster — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 00:56:39 -0500

Fuckkk, I can’t wrap my mind around this philosophy hw. I just don’t fully understand how to interpreted this and break it down. I’m tired and want to sleep. What’s worse, I have a speech tomorrow to which I am not fully prepared for.

Someone knock me out so I can go back to sleep af.

tumster — Sun, 05 Feb 2012 12:51:18 -0500

Someone knock me out so I can go back to sleep af.

People who call your house in the early morning, expecting you to pick up. It’s the early...

tumster — Wed, 01 Feb 2012 12:41:44 -0500

People who call your house in the early morning, expecting you to pick up. It’s the early morning -_-, everyone is still trying to sleep so stop calling.

Lol, I really hate two faced niggas who say they’ve matured and changed when they never do. I...

tumster — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 02:45:41 -0500

Lol, I really hate two faced niggas who say they’ve matured and changed when they never do. I hate this most when they involve other people and hurt them. It’s like bro, if you aren’t going to change the negative shit about yourself then fine, it doesn’t matter. Just don’t involve other people and hurt them. I mean seriously, have a fucking sense of morality for God’s sake and learn what it is since you talk about how “mature” you are and that you’ve “changed”. You’re still such a stupid little kid. Grow the fuck up.

I have a feeling that my philosophy class will be the death of me

tumster — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 12:31:30 -0500

I have a feeling that my philosophy class will be the death of me

I wonder if the people who say they post for themselves, subconsciously post wondering how many...

tumster — Fri, 27 Jan 2012 12:23:55 -0500

I wonder if the people who say they post for themselves, subconsciously post wondering how many notes they’d get.